the birth of a pessimist


people have asked me why I have a negative view of the world. well, if they have witnesses how my dreams have been snuffed out by adversity, how i was deprived of a level playing field at work, they would know. one does begin to harbor pessimism, or deep resentment and frustration overnight. the process is slow..... and so painful.

about corruption, who said that it can be licked in the philippines? it is everywhere. even in offices, where the palakasan system operates. he who gets to get cozy with the boss would surely be noticed come promotion. i have learned this bitter lesson in my previous job where i took charge of my small team even if nobody asked me to assume the role of leader. and surprise, surprise, the laziest and most incompetent in the group was appointed as supervisor. she even had the gall to pass some of her work to me because she would log on to her friendster account. so now, i am not expecting too much. office politics is so toxic, so repugnant that it is impossible to advance in your career without playing dirty.
but i am not that desperate for a promotion that i would sell my soul to the devil. i just want to do it the hard and honest way. level playing field? bullshit!!!!!!!